These are probably my favourite photos of my mother (her name was Vera), they were taken before I was born. Today was supposed to be her 64th birthday. It has been 16 years, she passed away when I was 9, luckily I had the chance to spend those years with her. She was a librarian, but preferred to stay at home to take care of me and my sister, whose 8 years older than me.
My memories of her are not very good, but what I can remember is that she was always caring, smiling and cheerful, always a good person to have around. She loved photography, cooking and teasing. I still have some pictures she took when I was little, and a couple of homemade films, they help me remind of her beautiful smooth black hair and her voice. They say that a person’s character is built in the first years of childhood, I’m very thankful that she built mine, and if I’m happy today, it’s because of her.
It’s hard to loose someone so important in life when your young, specially when that person is the first one you go to ask for advice and help. But some things in life happen because it’s supposed to be that way, and if God chose you it’s because you have the strength and courage to go on. And I always think if she were here, she wouldn’t like to see me alone, sad or depressed, but definitely happy. I had a lot of help from friends and family since she’s gone, and even a second mother figure from my beloved aunt Mirley. Every choice or decision I make, I think of my mom and ask myself if she would be proud of me, and I hope she is because I never found myself happier in life. And no matter where she is, I’m sure she has and will always have a part in my life. To love her and feel loved.
I couldn’t pick a music that reminds me more of her, The Mamas and The Papas played a lot in my house and the lyrics of Dedicated to the One I Love describes just the feeling….I know it’s hard to me and for her to be apart, but each night before I go to bed, I whisper a little prayer for her.
Thank you for everything mom, I will love you forever!